Monday, July 30, 2007

BIG surprise.

i'm shocked by my dad's initial reaction that he's considering the fact of letting me stay in s'pore, rather than travel back home everyday. he said he hasnt promised me anything yet, so i shouldnt get my hopes too high. but i am glad that the first step has been taken.

because i didnt go to school today (down with a fever), mom insists that i go view the apartment with her today. sigh. i've been falling ill very often these days, and the cause is that i sleep really late almost every night, up doing work. all the travelling makes it worse.

so i hope once i get to move out, things will be better.

and NO, i do not enjoy skipping school. i am NOT woman A who gets to enjoy her own policy of 2-working day per week scheme instead of the govn's 5-day. reason for her not coming to school: my boyfriend cheated on me with my best girly friend, so my heart broke, it needs time to heal she just doesnt feel well. come on people, dont be so harsh on her, give her a break! haha. :)

ugh. i dont feel well either. i'm such a bitch. :)

grant me my wish,
deon

Saturday, July 28, 2007

thanks to RUI-AN, who just commented that my new blog reminds him of my failed attempts to blog in sec 2.

it's hilarious now that i think of it. cos i used to blog in a weird manner: my posts on the blog had to be PERFECT. with all the nitty-gritty details that i couldnt miss out, and the smiley faces which i had to standardise. i ended up NOT posting them, and majority of them were saved as drafts. haha.

i tried all sorts of things to make my blog interesting, like add funny pictures that didnt make sense, and tried desperately to link what was in the pictures to what i was going to blog about in my sec 2 life. it was really bad now that i think of it. haha, but great experience though.

if it wasnt for ruian, i wouldnt have been exposed to blogging, heh. i still remember that he created my blogger acct for me, and the password was 'maoyang' (dont try, its not going to work now), then we changed it to 'maomaoyang'. totally retarded and wicked!

*sidenote: boo. rui an's very tall now. taller than i am. -.-

that was all in sec 2, and time really flies. we grow up so quickly, losing a lot along the way while we struggle to act and grow beyond our age.

just got home from a party at my uncle's place, where we celebrated the birthdays' of 4 of my cousins. i looked at them and thought to myself: WOW, they're x-year old now?

and its heartening and sad at the same time to know that they all grow up so fast. i miss the times when i was still carrying them in my arms. here's what my cousins are like now:

andy's in aussie studying now, completed his a's last year.
alex's in TP year 2 - business course.
deon's doing IB, graduating next year. (fyi, this is me)
diann's having her o's in oct. (my sis)
desmond is sec 4 now.
eugene is sec 2 - bukit panjang govn high and getting rounder each day. haha.
ming-ming is doing her PSLE in oct.
shin-ler's primary 3/4 (unsure, need to go check)
joshua's primary 2 now.
su'er is primary 1.
adele is 6 this year.
xin'er is 2 years old, and uberly cute.

12 in total. i love them all.

my friend was telling me not to grow up so fast, because its not right. but i realised i had no choice, it was either evolve or die, i had to learn how to handle school politics, i had to learn to stand on my own, i had to learn so many things that had taken most of my teenage years away.

how i long to be able to embrace the child-likeness i used to have, do the silly things like i did in sec 2, look forward to going to school and spending every weekend with the family.

kids, we all grow up too fast.

bring them back,
deon

i told her i like her a lot.

i cant believe i took so long to tell her.

i'm happy that she's just friends with him.

be mine,
deon

Labels: i like you

Friday, July 27, 2007

namada c. has the BIGGEST mouth in the entire school.

and an OVER-POWERING libido for gossips about other people.

they should put a bullet through her.

note: it's an anagram, go figure. its really easy.

you're a gossipy bitch,
deon

hello people.

thanks to all those who showed my concern about my eye injury! i know its really retarded to be able to cut your eye with soft lens. BUT it does happen! so BEWARE all contact-lens users!

and the cut is something like a paper cut. so you can IMAGINE the PAIN. ouch.

anyways, today was a pretty short day, got over my bloody chemistry test. i was surprised by the fact that with my-last-min-mugging, i still managed to understand the questions of the test, and manage to complete ALL of them, BUT screwed them up with silly mistakes due to the lack of understanding of the concepts. wtf.

and TN conveniently pin-pointed people about the silly mistakes they made in the test, i was one of them, but something hilarious happened.

TN: deon! qns 4 is a give-away question, and you got ZERO for it! how is that possible? Bond energies require you to add them up, and yet you subtracted the values!

Deon: Sir, is it only qns 4b) ZERO, or the whole thing is ZERO marks?

TN: THE WHOLE THING IS ZERO.

Deon: ...

TN: WAIT! 4a) is correct, 4b) is ZERO.

Deon: *phew. "..."

and i agree with sean, he shouldnt have read ou the names of the people who he found mistakes with in the test paper. its kinda degrading. but as he puts it: he is FRUSTRATED with us.

i MIGHT get a border-line pass for the chem test if i am lucky. oh-well.

ended the day with council meeting. its gonna be a madness of council duties from next week onwards. FOA, UNIFORM DAY, X-COUNTRY, ONE-ACS..

i'm looking forward to ONE-ACS. and yes, i love wearing the council uniform. haha. :)

i'm tied down, i dont know how to solve the problem between us. you're not helping either. like i said, its not about me, neither is it about you, its about US.

god i pray things will turn out fine please,
deon

Labels: chemistry, frustration, ZERO

Thursday, July 26, 2007

the doctor says its abrasion of the conjunctiva.

:(

mugging for chem test throughout the night.

mugging,
deon.

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

OUCH.

i cut my right eye with my contact lens, and i feel retarded about it. i guess i was rubbing my eye unknowingly with rather brute force, and it caused my right eye to turn really red, and it now has a small cut between the pupil and conjunctiva. IT FREAKING HURTS ALRIGHT.

the worst thing was that i started to panic when i saw the cut, i totally freaked out, called my mum on the phone and sounded as though i was going blind. TRIED to go to several eye specialist clinics, but they were closed. wtf.

ended up getting some crappy anti-bacterial eye drop from the pharmacy and have no choice but to go see the doc the next morning. note: this is not my plan to pon school alright.

i rather go to school and fail that chem test, THAN to lose my eyesight for eternity. HMM, actually it might be a good thing too, cos i wouldnt have to look at RC and TN. looking at them burns my eyes (as sean puts it) haha.

CONGRATS to sean, john and paul (plus mary e.chong) for making it into the debates SEMI's! and apparently class 5.12 is carrying out a rotational basis to skip john tan's class.

honestly, i feel sad for him. but probably after a few more years in the teaching realm, hopefully he will wisen up. HOPEFULLY.

today was a 'ALRIGHT' day. no major screw-ups. australian maths was UGH. i started to shade random circles after qns 14 onwards. haha.

i believe we are so deprived of recesses. sadd.

5 MISERABLE people turned up for the chinese a2 extra lesson today. but was happy that mr zhang praised me for my work. *claps. i still owe him my assignment. Oops.

after school, i had retail therapy at POPULAR bookstore, bought my collection of coloured files. YES, i colour-code my subjects, it makes things wayy easier. ask lucy why, i explained to her.

i just love the way i organise my stuff. :)

came home and had the cut-my-eye-with-contacts-incident. BOO. i am going to bed early to rest my eye.

OHH YEAH. humiliating ignoring fuzz with han an was SUPER fun today! lol. ask me for the juicy details!

ease the pain,
deon

Labels: chemistry, eye, ouch

Monday, July 23, 2007

Cheers can lift you up and also bring you down.

the day started with chapel (as usual), and we ended up counting rice grains and measuring their sizes for bio prac. BORING. and we counted corns the last lesson. today was a pretty short day in school cos the council had to go for a cheering session for the cricket's finals.

OK. *takes deeep breath. fyi people, i am the CHEERING i/c for the student coucil, which basically means that i am in charge of organising and leading all the cheering sessions. the FIRST session for me as the i/c was SCREWED UP. i really flunked the whole thing so bad that i was feeling so down during the cricket's finals.

reasons:
1. i prepared the stuff we needed for cheering, but we didnt have banners cos daniel decided to loan the banners to the prefects cos they needed it too. and it was also mentioned that there would not be space to place banners.

then suddenly, RJC appears with BANNERS, and i was taken aback and i believed this made the council somewhat feel inferior. but it didnt really dampen our spirits, although i felt really bad that i should have prepared more.

2. cricket is a WEIRD sports game (to me at least), cos we couldnt cheer most of the time, as cricket is what i call a silent sport, cos there were many quiet moments, and we also got instructions that we shouldnt burst into cheers as that would distract the players.

so cheering was really limited, and we could only do short ones each time.

3. as the cheering i/c, i was ineffective.

i failed to deliver and lead the council for cheers, cos i swear i was so freaked out because this is the first time i am doing cheers with the council, let alone lead them. and prawveen made a comment : the cheering really sucks. i was deeply affected by his comment, and i almost flared up / break down. but i know i couldnt do that as it would display my unprofessionalism and inability to handle the situation.

and yes, i realised self-sympathy is the worst form of sympathy ever.

lex took over and things started to get better, and also partly cos everyone was getting tired of being high about the match. IT LASTED FOR 5 FREAKING HOURS. NOPE, i am not complaining. :)

HURRAY, i am a cricket fan! (totally)

everyone got drowsy and tired of the match, so things just died down until the prize-giving ceremony when we cheered like mad for the cricket team. i feel bad for them, cos they won 2nd, and they really did put up a good fight against RJC at the start.

it was a great lesson learnt today for me as the cheering i/c. I'll BUCK UP. and i was EMO today. haha.

*sidenote: i am amazed by butler and lex's abilities to entertain themselves, they are a real joy to watch.

went out with bobbie and cheang jin for dinner (katong laksa!) and ended everything with a wonderful MERLIONSTER at BEN & JERRY'S!. yum yum. fyi, my favourite is cookie dough.

its exactly 30 mins more before my uncle's family arrives from at my place. its been 3 years since they came back from canada.

and the scary thing is that i heard that my cousin from canada is like REALLY BUFF now. apparently he's a tae-kwondo black-belt, which i knew long time ago. but he's like super BIG in size now. so yeah. freaky.

BUT BUT BUT, the thing i dread the most is that he might start speaking to me in some black men language, that goes: yo yo brother, check it out. whats up man, hows the air up there? ETC.

omfg. i swear i'll give the raise-eyebrow look, and then say: err.. hello?, in a british accent.

anyways, i am still excited to see my uncle's family, despite the fact that we are not close to each other.

long day ahead tmr, gotta start on my TOK draft (yes i know its very late), IOP (put my essay into ppt form), and chinese a2 work! (before chin siew moy goes berserk). YAWNs.

CAN ANYONE CONVINCE ME THAT ALL THESE ARE REALLY WORTH MY TIME?

cheer me up please,
deon

Labels: cheering, cookie dough, uncle

Sunday, July 22, 2007

hello everyone.

you must think i am MAD. because i cannot believe that i am doing this either.

DEON IS BLOGGING?!?!

let's see, when was the last time i blogged was early 2005, till i got so busy and occupied with my most unfortunate sec 3 life that i stopped. well, the new motivation to blog, came from the fact that i realised that tons of things flash pass me everyday, and its hard to capture the memorable ones by memory, so penning them down would be best way to remember them. and its pretty fun when you look back on your previous posts, and start recalling all those memories that you have once misplaced because you are all so engrossed with your busy schedule of mugging and trying to get past life.

recently, i looked back on my previous posts that i wrote when i was in sec 3, and i started giggling (YES, giggle) to myself because i realised how silly i was at that point of time. things that i was unsure about at that point of time, and things i was ranting about, all suddenly seemed to portray themselves in a different light, as if i received enlightenment, providing me with the answers i was looking for.

IB is stressful, with so many things going on about in school everyday. i enjoy all the cool stuff i do with my classmates, the gossips we all share, and the silly and funny moments we all have that crack us up so bad, and i feel the urge and need to pen all these down so that they wont be lost.

fyi, i am NOT EMO, but the blog skin i chose seems to suggest so. the reason i chose this skin was because its simple, neat and has great colour coordination. the boy sitting under the tree (which i believe is the WISHING TREE), just tied in closely with what i was feeling when deciding whether to start a new blog again or not, and the many other choices to make in life.

and i really do hope i have the time to update, even if its just a one/two liners.


this is my place, my space, my spot.


hear me cry laugh scream rant,
deon

Labels: cry, laugh, memories, rant, scream

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