Friday, July 25, 2008
what i meant when i said.
what a week it has been!
that dark knight is so far the BEST summer blockbuster that i have watched, courtesy of sean. :)
then it was 'open-your-eyes-sean's' birthday lunch on saturday at sun with moon (wheelock's place), courtesy of sean again. it's becoming my top-notch, favourite place for good Japanese food.
the rest of saturday was spent in way which i would describe as 'therapeutic', i have never used my card so many times in a day, (actually it's only twice) haha. but watching javier and yew jin splurge on zara, a/x was exciting, not forgetting to mention the amount of fun we had while picking out a prom night shirt for birthday boy at ted baker's.
*deon chases sean back into the changing room.
i decided to make my way promptly back to jb that night, and after 1.5 hours of travelling by MRT and bus, i reached the checkpoint just to realise that i had forgotten to bring along my passport. i went 'WOW', and then i allowed myself to enter
'self-loathing' mode until i cabbed back to novena.
us education fair on sunday allowed me to learn more about studying in the states, and honestly i think those 4 'bumping-around' years and money can be put into better use to study in uk.
and of course i have been doing my homework (background research) *winks. :)
monday was unfortunately the worst day of the schooling week, tuesday and wednesday went by with minimal effort.
after watching notes on a scandal, i have decided to name the best day of my week as the 'golden star day', and the G-S-Day was thursday, because not only did it include making smores for charity cafe, we also got to cut up little froggie during biology practical, and most importantly, it's our 8th month. :)
thursday night didnt end too well sadly. knee injury and heartache can really screw you up at the same time.
simple, productive friday spent making final touches to my EE, and includes the FINAL submission of world lit assignment, and now i am rewarding / drowning myself in episodes of SATC.
it's been an awfully quiet day for US. hope yours went well.
i never knew i was capable of jealousy.
'When you walk away,
you dont hear me say.
Please oh baby, dont go.
Simple and clean as the way you make me feel tonight,
it's hard to let it go'
i dont think life is quite that simple,
deon.
Under the tree@
{5:57 AM.
Saturday, July 12, 2008
the mattress that never existed.
the week went by with lots of free period throughout the day, which made me realised that not having tok / sl2 periods kinda made the days uneventful. but hey, i'm not complaining about free periods.
the whole drama thing is spiralling out of control. warned you not to play with fire lest you get burnt, but you just wouldnt listen. and now with the people once close to you leaving you one by one, THINK again - was it worth it?
i detest people who develop this bad habit, and was even more disgusted when you promised me that you would stop but ended up in a worsen situation.
the fact that ,
you treat our genuine concern and care for you as a outlet for more possible drama,
ditch us for unnecessary people when you claim that we are your good friends,
and refusing to admit that you've made a mistake from the beginning
just served to put everyone else off.
i REALLY wish i could help you, and i am still your friend, i dont wish to see our close knit be shattered because of this.
i can only pray for you.
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D: Do you mean the sports brand 'everlast'?
S: NO, 'everlast' is US.
:D
i need YOU so badly in my life that it seems like you've become part of my breathing mechanism.
your fav duck rice place was lovely,
deon.
Under the tree@
{6:16 AM.
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
and then i cried.
the inertia to get to school was actually so overpowering today that i figured the only way to get to school was via a cab.
lots of free periods today, with maths and business lessons out of the way, i had a relatively easy 'off-day'.
it finally feels so right so not have any more SL2 periods which means i get to leave school at 4 latest like everyone else.
i get to eat trashy food because it was a crappy day.
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the emotions and frustration got so overwhelming that when YOU called, i just felt like jumping straight into your embrace and just let everything else slip away.
all i want, is to receive your smses like YOU used to send me throughout the day. they kept me going, kept me smiling, kept me thinking of YOU.
YOU're turning this rational being into someone irrational,
someone who takes the plunge with his feelings,
someone who spends the day wondering if YOU love him as much he loves YOU,
someone whose world would collapse if YOU ever left him.
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let study group take my mind off all those nasty sad thoughts.
its the final leg of the race, and i've gotta finish it properly.
do it once, do it right,
deon.
Under the tree@
{6:01 AM.
