Thursday, August 30, 2007
a whole new level.
it's been a week since you have left me.i'm getting use to the feeling of being alone.oh wells. it's been a REALLY REALLY REALLY hectic week. i was overwhelmed. period.
or rather, its because that i am flying off to macau in exactly 3 hours time, and in view of this, i had to complete all my work before i could leave this place in peace.
plus my brain is dead from the EXTREME lack of sleep.
and my emotions are pounding me from all directions, with the fear of the up-coming surgery, the dreadfulness of maths portfolio and exams, the loneliness, the frustration and all else that you feel when you know that your life is crumbling.
i need to prevent myself from slipping into depression. and i found it amusing that lucy was telling me to chill while fanning me in the face with her hand. haha. thanks for the help, but i get really jittery when stress levels jump to extremes.
but, i am really grateful to the people that i trust and have around me in school. you know who you all are! :)
the only thing keeping me sane is that i am relieved that i settled everything i needed to before i fly off. and i am starting to use a NEW notebook to jot down my daily things-to-do list. surprise.
seriously, the macau trip is suppose to help me chill. and i hope i will get the chance to do so, and not still be so uptight. RETAIL THERAPY! heh. i have another assignment at hand, which is to draft out my who-i-shall-buy-stuff-for list. and for those i have promised.
surgery in 5 days. counting down.
give me a reason to believe in you,
deon.
Under the tree@
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