Saturday, December 29, 2007
there's desire in these eyes
it's a sad night tonight. the stars are crying too.
i cant help, but have tears roll down my cheeks.
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i vividly remember 2 years ago, when i was secondary 3 in 2005, during chinese lesson, mdm shieh asked us to debate over a particular topic, which was
'is it more fortunate to be loved by someone, or to love someone?'my initial response was 'duh, anyone would know that it is more fortunate to be loved by someone, loving someone will only break your own heart'. and thus i structured my points accordingly and represented my side which was to support the stand that it is more fortunate to be loved.
i remember saying that, it is more fortunate to be loved because if you love someone, it could only be one-sided, in other words - unreflected love. and also that being loved by someone doesnt require any much effort from your side, because you're the one receiving it.
now that i think of it, it seems really selfish to say that it is more fortunate to be loved than to love someone, and it is all within us to take but not to give.
BUT, falling in love with YOU has made me realised the joy of loving someone, it is like i understood what loving someone meant, and like tim said,
love is a commitment, love is not a feeling, it is not the warm fuzzy sensation we get in romantic movies. love is also a choice, and i've chosen you.falling in love with YOU has given me a reason to wake up every morning feeling happy, knowing that i love you, and that you love me back too. falling in love with YOU has given me the strength to pull through the longest of days, and falling in love with YOU has also added excitement and joy into my life.
i rather love you than to be loved.
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i dont know if you feel this, but every time i gently carress your face, look you in the eyes and say i love you, i mean it so badly.
there's desire in these eyes.and every time i walk pass you, i would always want to plant a kiss on the back of your neck. thats my way of telling you how much i adore you.
they say,loving someone is like grabbing a bird in your hands.if you grasp it too hard and tight, it will suffocate and die,if you grasp it too gently and loose, it will fly away.trust me, its not easy to find the balance.
at least i am learning to,
deon.
Under the tree@
{6:34 AM.
