Saturday, September 6, 2008
forever?
if i could no longer be with you..
how would you want me to remember you?
i really thought it's gonna be forever,
deon.
p.s i am a lousy blogger, i update SO irregularly.
Under the tree@
{4:22 AM.
Friday, July 25, 2008
what i meant when i said.
what a week it has been!
that dark knight is so far the BEST summer blockbuster that i have watched, courtesy of sean. :)
then it was 'open-your-eyes-sean's' birthday lunch on saturday at sun with moon (wheelock's place), courtesy of sean again. it's becoming my top-notch, favourite place for good Japanese food.
the rest of saturday was spent in way which i would describe as 'therapeutic', i have never used my card so many times in a day, (actually it's only twice) haha. but watching javier and yew jin splurge on zara, a/x was exciting, not forgetting to mention the amount of fun we had while picking out a prom night shirt for birthday boy at ted baker's.
*deon chases sean back into the changing room.
i decided to make my way promptly back to jb that night, and after 1.5 hours of travelling by MRT and bus, i reached the checkpoint just to realise that i had forgotten to bring along my passport. i went 'WOW', and then i allowed myself to enter
'self-loathing' mode until i cabbed back to novena.
us education fair on sunday allowed me to learn more about studying in the states, and honestly i think those 4 'bumping-around' years and money can be put into better use to study in uk.
and of course i have been doing my homework (background research) *winks. :)
monday was unfortunately the worst day of the schooling week, tuesday and wednesday went by with minimal effort.
after watching notes on a scandal, i have decided to name the best day of my week as the 'golden star day', and the G-S-Day was thursday, because not only did it include making smores for charity cafe, we also got to cut up little froggie during biology practical, and most importantly, it's our 8th month. :)
thursday night didnt end too well sadly. knee injury and heartache can really screw you up at the same time.
simple, productive friday spent making final touches to my EE, and includes the FINAL submission of world lit assignment, and now i am rewarding / drowning myself in episodes of SATC.
it's been an awfully quiet day for US. hope yours went well.
i never knew i was capable of jealousy.
'When you walk away,
you dont hear me say.
Please oh baby, dont go.
Simple and clean as the way you make me feel tonight,
it's hard to let it go'
i dont think life is quite that simple,
deon.
Under the tree@
{5:57 AM.
Saturday, July 12, 2008
the mattress that never existed.
the week went by with lots of free period throughout the day, which made me realised that not having tok / sl2 periods kinda made the days uneventful. but hey, i'm not complaining about free periods.
the whole drama thing is spiralling out of control. warned you not to play with fire lest you get burnt, but you just wouldnt listen. and now with the people once close to you leaving you one by one, THINK again - was it worth it?
i detest people who develop this bad habit, and was even more disgusted when you promised me that you would stop but ended up in a worsen situation.
the fact that ,
you treat our genuine concern and care for you as a outlet for more possible drama,
ditch us for unnecessary people when you claim that we are your good friends,
and refusing to admit that you've made a mistake from the beginning
just served to put everyone else off.
i REALLY wish i could help you, and i am still your friend, i dont wish to see our close knit be shattered because of this.
i can only pray for you.
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D: Do you mean the sports brand 'everlast'?
S: NO, 'everlast' is US.
:D
i need YOU so badly in my life that it seems like you've become part of my breathing mechanism.
your fav duck rice place was lovely,
deon.
Under the tree@
{6:16 AM.
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
and then i cried.
the inertia to get to school was actually so overpowering today that i figured the only way to get to school was via a cab.
lots of free periods today, with maths and business lessons out of the way, i had a relatively easy 'off-day'.
it finally feels so right so not have any more SL2 periods which means i get to leave school at 4 latest like everyone else.
i get to eat trashy food because it was a crappy day.
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the emotions and frustration got so overwhelming that when YOU called, i just felt like jumping straight into your embrace and just let everything else slip away.
all i want, is to receive your smses like YOU used to send me throughout the day. they kept me going, kept me smiling, kept me thinking of YOU.
YOU're turning this rational being into someone irrational,
someone who takes the plunge with his feelings,
someone who spends the day wondering if YOU love him as much he loves YOU,
someone whose world would collapse if YOU ever left him.
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let study group take my mind off all those nasty sad thoughts.
its the final leg of the race, and i've gotta finish it properly.
do it once, do it right,
deon.
Under the tree@
{6:01 AM.
Sunday, June 15, 2008
halo kitty.
i am only the person you make me to be.
i have a thought - that you see me as an intelligent, compassionate and emotional partner to you.
i am thankful that you paint such a beautiful personality for me, and for the mental image that you will always have of me.
you're just so amazing if i may say so.
you're the perfect reasonwhy i am so in love.
miao,
deon.
Under the tree@
{9:13 AM.
Saturday, June 7, 2008
a cut above the rest.
looking at or hearing about the people you've been with, makes me wonder if i'm only a link in your chain.
i really like to think of myself as being different from them, but maybe the differences arent that big after all.
i've been telling myself that i'm not like them, but that does not necessarily separates me from them.
so tell me, am i a precious stone which is a cut above the rest,
or just a glass stone amongst the thousands which only shine when the light hits them at the right angles?
i told you so,
deon.
Under the tree@
{8:32 PM.
Thursday, March 27, 2008
S you put it.
my mind is half dead now.
but as S puts it: i have not blogged for an ENTIRE month. oops.
March is ending soon, but let me recap what happened over the past few weeks.
but WAIT. before i begin - HISTORY HAS REPEATED ITSELF
AGAIN. wtf, i swear i will never touch another freaking maths portfolio again. IB is real torture.
SPOTTED: D tearing out his hair, wetting his pants over radiometric dating maths portfolio (WHY on earth do we need to know how to calculate the radioactive decay of dinosaur bones and throw 216 die repeatedly?)
alright. enough of the ranting. just so you know S, i'm putting my maths portfolio
at risk on hold to blog. hehe. :P
the term ended on a VERY hectic note, i recall the last day of school when i was running about like a mad man to complete various assignments.
we had a sudden chemistry practical thrown to us earlier in the day, and it was DEMANDED to be handed in at the end of the day, and then there was EE submission, plus not forgetting to mention that i had to settle both Chinese A2 written tasks before they would be packed personally by Chock herself and sent over to IBO.
at the end of that day, all i could say was 'Hallelujah'.
left for KL the following sunday, it was a relatively relaxing trip and great family bonding time. but the whole time my heart was with YOU, because you came down with really bad runs. calling YOU at various intervals was the only possible way that i could offer you comfort since i was far away.
and then there was the awesome HOUSE-WARMING PARTY! ok silly me, because i failed to realised that the weather was really bad the past few days then, and i blindly went to order BBQ food, thinking that God would favour me by allowing me to have a BBQ during the rainy season.
unfortunately, He didnt.
so we ended up using the oven at home to cook the food. trial and error before we finally got the timing and temperatures right. BIG thank you's to JLC and Han An for helping out, and the rest for EATING! :)
the house-warming party ended with lucy, han an and sean making a BIG splash at the pool. hilarious moment.
school came on back, striking fear in our hearts with MATHS PORTFOLIO. the week went past really fast due to Good Friday. and surprisingly i felt connected to God during REW this year, maybe because i was feeling really down. and i finished my World Lit Essay (draft 1) too! *pats myself*
perfect couple's day on Good Friday! Gold Class for Spiderwick Chronicles was worth it (at least to me), and watching YOU enjoy the movie in the comfortable seat and snuggled up in the warm blanket just made me smile. :)
next movie to conquer in Gold Class: Chronicles of Narnia - Prince Caspian! hehe.
and on the happy note, we celebrated our cute Genevieve's 18th birthday @ Esplanade. the best prize is always a surprise i say. :)
on the more serious note,
up-coming: submission of maths portfolio (in exactly 11 hours time), YLS on saturday, TOK presentation on april's fool day (i hope i dont make a joke out of it), and more EE drafts.
UGH.
Thank you peeps for all still being there and supportive, it really means a lot to me and to YOU for forgiving me despite my major screw-ups.
i love you all. BIG time.
back to maths portfolio and NO sleep,
deon.
Under the tree@
{9:06 AM.
